The best is yet to come

Posted on November 5, 2025 by Melody

I hate to leave things unfinished, and I hate to leave things in a place of conflict or bad feelings. I’ve been lashing out quite a bit lately at the seemingly intentional apathy being directed towards myself and this book. The truth is, I’ve been reaching out so hard for months, and the vibe I’ve been getting in return is mostly ‘fuck off, Mel’. My emails get ignored, my requests for professional courtesy are shat upon, and it is so deafeningly quiet in the realm of my art and comics that I’m actually beginning to think my art just sucks and I need to quit showing it to people.

If you are someone I have reached out to recently, and denied me any sort of human compassion, I just want you to know that I will remember it. Though, I will admit, I was dumb enough to reach out to people who have demonstrated over and over again how much they don’t give a damn about me. But as I said, I want to clear the air and not leave any bad feelings. But I would also like the world at large to know just how bad it’s let me down. You dropped the fucking ball. But the good news is that it was never your responsibility in the first place.

I can’t make people like my art/writing/comics any more than I can make them like me. I’m a scary bitch who makes scary art. Years ago, people used to be really into what I would create, but the world has changed for the worse, and whatever I was onto 20 years ago is apparently not acceptable anymore. I’ve been fooling myself forever, thinking that if only I could finish this series and people would read it, then maybe they would finally understand me and accept me for who I am. That is never going to happen. I am an Autistic woman with a serious dissociative disorder. I am fated to be misunderstood.

I want to take a moment to address the theoretical entities who may actually be consuming, enjoying, and/or learning from the crazy shit I post here. I appreciate you. I really do. You’re probably not real, but I want to tell you how awesome you are anyway, just in case you are real. You’re obviously very intelligent and have excellent taste in comic books. I hope whatever challenges you face in your individual lives are met with courage and capability. I want you to know that I am going to continue this story, and even though my posting schedule will never make sense, I look forward to having your eyes upon it.

And with that, I do need to shut the fuck up. I don’t have the strength to reach out anymore. I need to conserve my energy for more important things, like working on Ragdoll, and enjoying my weird little family. I’ll post when I have something I feel like sharing. Until then, I think I’ve earned some selfishness and isolation. I like to say that the best is yet to come, and I truly believe that. Whether or not I choose to share that best with the world has yet to be determined.

Peace.

2 thoughts on “The best is yet to come”

Charles Mosteller
11/29/2025, 7:30 pm
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I’m not really familiar with any of the above. I was browsing a few comic books on offering on the IndyPlanet website, today, something that I rarely ever do, anymore, and your Ragdoll Issue #9 is one that I browsed.

For the very reason that Ragdoll #9 doesn’t really tell me much, and shows me even less, is what prompted me to look you up by name in an Internet search. That, in turn, led me here to your website, where I ended up reading this article by you.

Art, by its very nature, is truly a subjective thing – and we don’t all like the same thing. Your art isn’t terrible, but using Ragdoll #9 as an example, there’s not exactly a lot of your art on display. You provided zero sample pages of your comic book’s interior pages to try and visually tempt people with. Having no sample pages on display, aside from your comic book’s front cover, is one of the most surefire way to miss out on making extra sales. In fact, it’s typically the primary reason why I will click off of comic books on online sites that sell them, whether I like the cover art or not.

In a nutshell, you can’t visually tempt people with nothing, and if all that you choose to bother providing those who are looking for new comic books to read is only the front cover, then good luck with that approach. You simply can’t maximize sales of your comic books that way. That’s equally true of any other indie comic book creator, and isn’t something unique to just yourself.

You’re certainly free to try and market your comic books pretty much any way that you want to. That can come at a price, though, in both sales and attention (awareness).

That aside, your article above doesn’t exactly showcase confidence on your part. Abstract things such as passion and self-confidence can help drive interest, awareness, sales, and profits.

Best of luck you to as you go forward with your art and your comic books!
1. Melody
  
  11/29/2025, 8:32 pm
  
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  Thank you so much for taking the time to comment. I’m curious to know where exactly you were looking that you didn’t see any sample pages? I submitted sample pages to IndyPlanet to display, and it was my understanding that they had displayed them. Also, issues 1 through 9 are available to read for free in their entirety right here on this website. Please let me know if you were having trouble navigating the site. That may be one of the problems I’m having with readership. Also, I have censored sample pages available on all of the major webcomic communities. I’d love to find a community platform where I could post my uncensored pages, but I haven’t found one yet.
  
  You’re correct in that I don’t sound very confident in my art. I’m not. Not yet anyway. And the reason why is pretty complex, so I won’t get into it, but the lack of engagement from an audience for so many years was a contributing factor. I’m actually quite shocked that someone replied to this, or even took the time to read it. I thank you for your insight, and again, if my website sucks and is hard to navigate, please let me know! All of the pages are right here for you to read.